First, thank you – what a kind and generous thing to say. I am grateful my words might help now and then, because so often words feel like the rustiest, most falling-apart thing in my toolbox of compassion.
And second, and more important, thank you for all that you’re doing. Thank you for losing sleep on account of this person you love so much. Thank you for getting good and pissed off about the whole situation, and swearing sometimes, because (as I told you) I love to swear, and when done properly, swearing is better than a shot of tequila and almost as good as a good night’s sleep.
Thank you, too, for being honest about how hard this is. It is hard. It’s excruciating. It’s hard for the rest of us to watch, and I can’t imagine how hard it is to be in the middle of it all, the uncertainty, the pain, the known and the unknown (which is worse?), the waiting, the running around here and there to see this person and that, to pick up this thing and that, all signs of normalcy gone. Or this is a new normal, and it’s awful.
Thank you for your constancy. That’s one of my favorite words – constancy. It means you don’t quit when things get contrary or hard. It means not changing who you are or what matters to you most even it would be so much easier not to give a damn. Constancy means showing up, all the time, whether you want to or not. Constancy is a pretty good expression of love, if not grace. Thank you for your constancy.
Thank you for all you did decades ago, for the foundation you have built. I hope it’s sustaining you now. And I won’t thank you for what you will do in the future, because honestly, when this situation resolves itself – however that may be – you deserve a rest and a glass of Chardonnay, and a massage. If I hear about some awesome Festival of Swearing, I will let you know immediately. I might go with you.
And thank you for whatever you’re doing this moment, besides reading this post. Thank you for getting dinner on the table, or ordering a pizza to be delivered. Thank you for wiping down the bathroom. Thank you for sitting in traffic, because you have to get to that place by that time. Thank you for checking Facebook because it’s a moment of escape. Thank you for taking that phone call, for making that phone call. Thank you for lying down for a few minutes, not sleeping, but at least resting.
Thank you. Please don’t forget that you are loved.